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Well, here I am again. I decided that with all the stress lately I might feel better writing some of it down. Since my last post in august life has taken a nose dive of sorts, my mood has anyways. My brother got engaged, this is a happy thing especially since I really get along well with his fiance. School was good until I had the worst day of my life at the hospital one day in November and I thought my life was over. Without going into the gory details, I feared for my educational welfare. This feeling continued until just before christmas when I found out that I had passed all my classes, phew!! As a result of my anxiety the build up to christmas wasn't very enjoyable. I was back at work, and lonely as everyone who I am used to talking to all day was gone. Shortly after I came back Beth came though, like a ray of sushine, heralding the return of old Apko. This made things better, but working outside in the wet and cold still sucked.

Back at school in January, can't believe it's already february, and I was assigned to work on a psych ward. I was terrified!!!! I am no longer terrified but I definitely do not look forward to my time there, I love nursing, but psych nursing is just not for me. I don't think I am mentally tough enough to handle the things that go on there everyday. Any nurse capable of working in a psych ward deserves all the credit anyone can possibly give her/him, it's hard!!! I currently despise the way I spend my days, school, followed by homework, followed by not nearly enough sleep. This happens everyday until the weekend when school is replaced by work...sigh..what I would do just to not think for a few days. Well, time to get back to work, drugs, drugs, drugs, must learn them all!!

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Tis a sad time and a happy time, sad as I draw near to the end of my summer holidays (though they aren't technically "holidays" because I work full-time but that does get me away from school and homework et al.)  Happy things are going to the states just for the purpose of going to red lobster (my best friend's husband LOVES it), having my other best friend get engaged and starting to plan another wedding, and my brother being very happy right now.  The weather is nice too, not too hot for my last week of work, this makes me very happy.  Life is good, and I am looking forward to school and getting back to the hospital to help people.

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Wow, I can't believe how long it has been since I was on here.  Life has changed tonnes, but as always is really busy.  Instead of being a sad little university student searching for a major, I am now a nursing student, and proud of it!! Working at the hospital is awesome and the patients are so inspiring.  I never realized how powerful a smile is until I started working at the hospital, every one of my patients comments on my smile and how much better it makes them feel.  I noticed that some of the nurses almost never smile, I am sure this is because they are stressed, but smiling helps, so I do it a lot. 

hmmm...what else, oh yes, my best friend got married exactly  one month ago today, it was one of the best days of my life, even if I did cried pitifully in front of a whole tonne of people while giving my speech!!!

I went to Las Vegas at the beginning of June, that was awesome, some friends of my family  came to visit us there.  They are the kind of people that make everyone around them have fun, no matter what, it was awesome.

That's all I can think of right now, it's my day off work today so I'm going to go do some enjoyable things like gardening and CD shopping, (Billy Talent II and Nizlopi, if I can find it!)

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